This weekend I was an emotional wreck. I had a countless number of breakdowns (more than I think I have ever had in one weekend), and God broke me down and built me back up more times than I can remember. One time in particular was when I was sitting in front of the Blessed Sacrament. I had just come from confession, and I had completely lost it. I hadn't intended on going into confession and having an emotional breakdown, it just kinda happened. God tore down the walls in my heart like a wrecking ball, but He was right there helping me to clean up the rubble. I was reminded that many things are out of my control, and He helped me to turn some of those things over to Him. In that moment, I, sitting on the floor so small and helpless, was completely satiated with Christ's love for me. He was there, all around me, within me, in front of me, behind me. With me. "Know that I love you utterly. I am God. Believe it and be satisfied."
"We are ONE body, one body in Christ. And we do NOT stand alone."
"And He came that we might have LIFE."
ReplyDeleteI think that when we both had a breaking point when gluing the banner, God truly came and gave us new life through Father Mike as he prayed over us. And again during our time together in the Blessed Sacrament Chapel as we prayed. And again as we got to hold hands during Adoration. And again as we walked into closing Mass together. So many times this weekend I could feel the Holy Spirit moving between us and within us bringing us NEW LIFE to carry on. I love you, Renee.
What a beautiful weekend! Throughout your breakdowns you still managed to have a successful retreat! I loved being able to come back and hear everyone's testimonies. You and the team worked so hard and it was very clear that God made you a vessel for each an every one of the participants. You were Christ for others this weekend and I am so thankful that there are people like you to do God's work even through your tears.
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